ingenie-ty

last year around this time i lay on my bed, tired drained and resigned. i said to the man upstairs, is it so hard to find someone who is kind, sexy and tall? was that too ambitious a list? if you're wondering why i have such  unusual criteria, i can't really explain except i've acknowledged long ago that i'm an unapologetic lookist. from young i'd only choose the perfect shaped cookies and cutest looking toys. perhaps the media shaped a part of this with incessant images of buxomy women in varied states of undress, well in the black and white era it was mostly sexploitative movies of caveman / sword& sandal features (think raquel welch,bridgette bardour) oh wait i think i'm drawn to female beauty coz i don't recall noticing the hotness of a man until maybe the pre-pubescent years of james dean and later sting. haha perhaps i was inclined to be a lesbian all along.

ok back to the point of this entry. cut a year later and i was granted those three wishes, plus a bonus coz she also cooks! haha i'm grateful for everything she is.


i especially love our dynamics, best captured here

it's like im the impish kid and she's all proper although i'm older by a full 4.5 years, or in her words, 'you are a naughty and cheeky baby'. sometimes it feels like she's the mommy /big sis i always wanted, and perhaps that is what i've searched for my entire life. and yes, i think he heard me repeat sexy on my list too often!