a love-letter to my tube-loving teens on my 45th

so what do i seek on my 45th year? nothing really,just to live my remaining days in simplicity and calm. no more emotional entanglements. just work out my retirement plan, settle all outstanding debts, set up a lovely cove for the kids when i'm gone so they will have lovely lives. i really don't expect much from what's left because i have lived thoroughly without compromise. these days i just try to fulfil my duties and functions, while wishing the best for the girls and doing all i can to make that happen. that's the only focus i need to make things complete and whole.