his eyes are on the sparrow

so interestingly this song seems to be following me around. first it was last year when i was concerned about the status of my job contract terms pending an unfavourable medical report and the ministry was going to dock my pay for a couple of months. and then for some reason the salary gets banked in ahead,including that civil servant's bonus which i was never eligible before. timely when i was planning a trip with the kids.

then this year at my mom's bd bash, the pastor suddenly comes up to request singing that song.and as he was belting out i perused the lyrics a little more than usual and was amazed by how much a timeless hymn like this applies to our daily struggles. the sparrow. that verse about how much more he'd care for us if he had the sparrow's back haha tiny wings n doofus looking head.i've seen these eaten by some exotic tribe. i digress.

so i've been thinking a lot about how i want to make this year work like everyday may be my last. i plan vacations around a harried work week, and the past 10 have been especially draining all around. but i breathe and think about how it all adds up to making the ones i love happy.i could choose to look out only for myself and that would be peaceful and routined, but the rewards are hardly comparable to the artless smiles of these other faces,the mileage that kind of love language can derive is invaluable and would someday be paid forward to the ones they love. that alone is enough gratification.

and yup i will achieve this as some other variety of fowl.i'm thinking the humble but reliable chicken,but i think he wants me to soar like an eagle.