so we've thrashed out our little issues the past couple of days and if you could hear the intensity of things discussed and unveiled, one would think we've been together for years. and that's why i marvel at what we have. it's really a depth which transcends time and logic. i've never forged anything this quickly with anyone before.
perhaps as i once tried to rationalise, we've already known each other for >6 years in the context of twice-removed friends and later the pally exchanges on fb. but i guess what was always at the background was that we were more or less aware of the other's circumstances so that was sort of out of the way in terms of breaking down barriers.
what we've achieved these past couple of months though is really raw and honest sharing, based on that innate trust of already 'knowing' each other. i ramble incoherently because i think what i really want to say is, i am firmly convinced that all this is indeed a divinity which shapes our ends because nothing else could explain the timeliness of it, or the fact that she is about the only partner i've encountered whose taken on every possible challenge from my emotional and family baggage to its potential heartache with nary a regard to protecting herself. she has the adamant faith of a loyal footsoldier which moves and even amuses at points. it makes me want to hold her and kowtow in a strangely confusing moment of love and bewildered admiration. damn all this is so hard to express in words sometimes because i'm really gobsmacked by this miracle of what love does to heal, to edify and mostly to assure. and in her case, to reconcile what i once thought was a facile version of our maker to what i now know as true. coz only he could make something like us work. over and over again. and then some.
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