1+1 is still, er 2

and more on numbers, i'm now thinking about what her ex once texted me when i informed her that we were dating, 'good luck.'

hmm perhaps that would be the same thing my ex/s would say to her because i've also had a history of unreasonable behaviour, too many incidents to recount.

but that's the thing, ultimately we all are wired with certain quirks which another would never accept because we can't change the other. and we shouldn't. and if god-willing, some sort of chemistry will result in the combination of two which would somehow straighten itself out. i mean if we were to provide manuals on each other before venturing into a r/s then what's the fun in unraveling all that mystery in the package?

for me admittedly it has been something in between surprise and culture shock. initially i was truly disarmed by her brazen honesty and how she expresses her opinions almost in aspergers-resque spontaneity. it took time to adapt to it and now i can safely say i've honed it into an art of shruggish acceptance, not in any way embarrassed resignation, but more like an endearment that she is that, and always will be. more importantly, i see her. her constancy. how that also translates to a deep loyalty and unchanging devotion. so really, i've learned to flip the situation and suspend judgement. it has to be this way because that what love does. it is embracing and gracious.

on that note, i'm sure she's had her share of adapting to my more than explicable eccentricities.  i do wonder what it's like to live with me too. my anal and set ways of running my life, control-freakish methods of managing everything from how i eat to sleep. so all's fair in love and war they say haha

anyway, i maintain that ultimately all that's important is the present. how we may've been to our ex-s shouldn't matter a toss because we start anew, build a future and all else before that is moot.