coming home to us.

it's been an emotionally-challenging week, well i think i created the challenge and she had to try and accomodate it. i'm really internally damaged by trust issues. something i've consciously tried to fix the past year but time and again i get arrested by irrational episodes.

i just know i will heal and hopefully build on a stronghold of her loyalty and assurance. i know i have channeled to many unrelated demons of my past and this has done nothing but baffle and worry her. for that i will have to remind myself that she is my present. my here and now. then only can i work to a future us.
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what she's about. <333

我就会充满难以解释的爱怜，想紧紧的把你拥在怀里，就这样的保护你，爱着你。不需言语，不需解释。
就这样，静静的，我的心交给你。