i guess that's something which really moved me the other day, not so much my ego but my faith. it's really a part of his gameplan for me in 2012, especially when i'd spent a year trying to heal. all of last year i questioned the loss of a r/s which i was certain i had done my best to maintain. i was left high and dry, feeling so unlovable and self-loathing. and my trust was shattered beyond repair.
but here she is, in her sincere and assuring way, holding me and telling me how much she wants to take care of me and my heart, helping me pick up the pieces, showing me how easy it is with a grounded faith. i'm inspired by her simplicity and the simple way she loves. it is child (dog)-like and earnest.
i'm looking forward to building that again with her, letting her in, trusting everything that she is. starting with our first family vacation together in a couple of days. i want us to build lovely memories with her, with our loved ones, each step of the way.
i am 65% dog. woof. please be patient with me ok darling? and have faith. i am not going anywhere nor do i want to go anywhere. just here, with you. with the family.
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