june hols are upon us.

So i don't completely waste away, here's a to-do list:

1. get tooth extraction sorted out 
2. have a kickass vacay in taichung 
3. read AMS 
4. seek alternative vehicle options
5. spend quality time w kids when they arent in school 
6. get wedding items like decor, dress for her n band also for her 
7. go on beach walks w pooch coz she is getting neurotic

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vividly i dreamt i was driving a convertible with a ciggy on my right and lexi riding shotgun. we were heading nowhere, just endless open roads. that is a perfect world, perhaps symbolic of my last journey into truth and light. if only i had a look at the number plate...

i've lost so much this month. my front tooth, my wallet, my faith in anything good in humanity. i think 44 has a lot more riding in its portent. 

life drops a shitload on your head and i say bring it, make it a boulder this time.

the distance is insurmountable. maybe like everything false in life we beguile ourselves with manufactured forms of happiness. all i want is to bottle that artless laughter of the children when they still were. that perhaps is the closest thing to unadulterated bliss.