enjoy the silence

after what was a heartwrenching meltdown with baby, we've reached a new path of understanding, one which we want to learn how to handle our anger, to trust and hold, to let go and let god.

i guess what it comes down to is the love we want to embrace in all this, not letting the externalities or past or any form of ill-timed discussions cloud what is always there. i know when it all subsides -- the confusion which leads to unintentional hurt, that i love her so damn much. it doesn't matter how we may get lost along the way, as long as we acknowledge what is deep and real. that will be the one true voice which leads us to the higher ground so we can see the bigger picture before us. and love is truly all we need.

we spent a great may day just doing anything close to nothing. after a heady evening of The Avengers (which i privately mused how our inner-child reigned during the movie), we took a complete hiatus from doing much today. just being beside each other, holding, sleeping, breathing. it just feels so right it's beyond description, other than the laundered scents of her tank top, the softness of her kisses, the sound of her sighs, the cute round orbs of sincere regard. i take all that and i thank the man upstairs for having such a beautiful soul sent to me. and i tell myself, viv, don't let her go. ever.