spent the evening w kat who needed company to cope with her recent loss and betrayal issues. wow it was like re-living my nightmare from another side coz i knew exactly what she was going thru. i guess it must be destined that i should be an expert in hearbreaks. so we hung around town, drinking, shopping and having dinner, all the while putting up with her occasional outbursts of anger and hurt. all i could do was listen with the assorted advice in between.
i guess what hit me most which i also told her was the pattern of unreasonable behaviour peeps that age would display.they push and pull and can't seem to get over their decisions. they want to leave you for what they think is a better life with others and yet they want to keep you on a string. it's a sick game which i told her she should cold-turkey in contact from. as i have. in fact i've been very resolute about keeping to my decision never to talk, see or even text her where possible. 2012 is about a fresh clean slate and treating myself and my loved ones with due attention and devotion. that's all there is to it.
and i told her to repeat this mantra everytime she weakens, 'she's dead to me.'
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