so i'm feeling a lot more centered these days. i know this because i am feeling less edgy or easily angered. take yst for e.g when i was cut at the intersection too many times and when i find out that i can't get that vehicle due to ridiculous MAS ruling. it's insane to cough upfront for a 5y.o car even if it was ideal for transporting bike, kids,dog.
i have become more accepting of things around me too. it is pointless to get mad at things you can't change or be upset that people are going to behave in a certain manner. it is their choice and right. i respect that and will just shrug and move on.
moving on is something which takes training and acceptance. it is hard but i am getting there. in the meantime, i focus on what's positive around me. starting with my work day, making students see the beauty in good writing, in appreciating their education more one narrative at a time. they respond positively when you channel your light in everything you do. you inspire when you're inspiring, simple as that.
at home i try to keep things simple. meals, cleanliness, time with the pooch, read, watch, play. all about moments. never dwell. just do and be. it helps to keep me mindful that every moment is harmony. with the kids it will be even better coz now i can focus on being there for them in any way possible, run errands, bring them for meals. it's all good. i feel like i'm back to me again in 2007 when i managed all this on my own and made the home a lovely place to live in.
that's all i need from here on really. of course with the occasional treat to self and kids which make the income meaningful. eventually i can really come back to who i love about myself and then i will live life better, calmer, surer.
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