last night she laid another guilt bomb by telling me how she was feeling alienated by the latest activities of the family, and then suddenly becoming completely absorbed in getting a dog and accompanying accessories not unlike procuring a child from a third-world economy. i do wonder if this is some form of over-compensation. and of course not before laying another bible-inspired line on me which smacked of the sanctimonious crap which tore us apart.
but these are good reminders to ground me to my resolve. i should not budge from what i had decided a month ago. it has to remain this way because much as there's emotional depth and loyalty, the relationship can never be.so i shouldn't allow that invisible thread to continue holding us together. i should simply not be emotionally involved in any way, despite the gifts and attention. i will have to do this for both of us. a complete cold turkey.
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